Monday, February 9, 2009

Half a rant, but too despondent to care

Fuck. I dont really have a clue what to write, or where to start. Maybe ill start by saying ive had enough. Feeling really shitty over the last couple of weeks. Havent been playing live much, had a quick spin in the fitz where i hit a set of 4s against a set of 6s and had an early exit from a tourney. Ive been playing online. A lot. Way too much in fact. Kinda figured out it was too much when im playing all night and sleeping most of the day. Not good when there's kids in the house. Finding that missing little things like collecting them from school and going to the library was really hard. havent really seen any friends in a long time either. Have poker friends like Sinead, but actual friends have taken a back seat. So really looking forward to spending time with the kids and girls. Found that online poker can really take your soul bit by bit. Every time you get one outered or put it in with the best hand and still end up losing, i feel like a little part of me gets lost. So after weeks of this, even with the odd cash here and there, ive decided to take a long deserved break. Ill no doubt be back to try and qualify for the I O ME on paddy, or maybe the Ladies Open thing if it gets going, but reckon the omaha cash tables can do without me donating for a while. Im really looking forward to the I O, but its not gonna be the end of my world if i dont sat into the ME, the ladies event is going to be a two day this year, so that'll be much better and hopefully if i can go even 1 place further than last years 10th, ill be happy. So until then, be lucky.